daisyflower

What is it about mentration that really messes with my ability to keep it together? I don’t care what I eat, I don’t care that I didn’t move any farther than the refridgerator today and I certainly am not taking pride in my appearance. On the surface, yeah, I’d like to lose weight, but feeling so lazy it’s as if I need someone else to do it for me. I first feel like crap from not doing anything all day, then I feel emotionally like crap- because I haven’t done anything all day - so I eat- because I haven’t done anything all day, and repeat. Every month this is where I lose all the hard work I’ve put in. I’ll lose weight, I’ll be on a good roll “yeah! I’m down 5 lbs!” Then PMS comes into town like a bat outa hell and wrecks everything I’ve worked towards. Anyone else know what I’m going through? It’s like someone else moves into my body stays just enough time to reverse ALL work done in the previous weeks.

How do I stop it? Behavioral therapy? Pad lock on the fridge? From what I’ve already read on the web here’s what I’ve found, “Eat healthy and stay away from caffeine and refined sugar,” “Take  a B vitamin and stay away from caffeine and sugar.” Who are they kidding? I drank a diet coke today and it tasted like the nectar of the gods! Sure taking a B vitamin took away most of my cravings for chocolate, but then there’s that lingering desire (?) no, lingering all consuming all encompasing NEED for all things cheesy. This is so lame. I’ve got control over everything else in my life, but this week my constitution takes a break and I end up in the fetal position on the couch, crumbs all down my front, watching Love Actually and crying my brains out, who am I?!